more like boring nothings.
lately aaron has not really been saying anything to me. let me correct that
i just flopped down on my pillow. im so irritated that i can barely bring myself to type it out. but audrey is sick of listening to it, so here i go.
aaron has been saying a lot of sweet nothings. talking a lot but never anything of substance. and im over it. i get that we weren't meant to be, we don't get along, and quite frankly i don't think we even share the same interests anymore. so i stopped talking to him this week to see how it felt. it felt great.
unfortunately, aaron got extremely upset about it and we got into a fight about it on friday.
we just talked things over but while each of us apologized, it felt like the conversation didn't actually get anywhere and both of us thought the other person was still in the wrong. i just, i don't get it. why would you want to talk to me, if the only thing you're going to say is variations of "good" or "nice"
"i had a nice lunch today"
"vidya's trip to chicago was good. we had a nice time."
right aaron, because you're being so descriptive right now. it feels like i was actually there.
i know he's being hypersensitive about me because of everything that has happened recently but this is just straight up irritating. he does't want to say anything real but he wants to keep in touch and i kind of just want to be left alone. if you're not going to tell me everything, why would i want to know anything at all?
and thats the part that irritates me the most. i know if anything were to happen to him romantically, i'd be the last to know about it. so i kind of just want to be left alone. if you're going to omit things, why talk to me at all?
is that what this is about? me not knowing anything anymore? i'm not sure. it definitely has a part to play but im over him and his big headedness. i just want to move on with my life and right now its tough when he won't let me go.
maybe i don't want to be friends anymore?
