On Second Thought

based on the excessive obsessing that i've been doing lately over a certain someone that i spend a lot of time with, something has occurred to me.

he probably doesn't even like me anymore.

it's been a long time since he's initially found me irresistible and beautiful (as i recapped from that previous blog entry). thinking about it now, thats very flattering. that he found me irresistible. i wonder if he was being serious or just saying that because its a sweet thing to say. he still won't tell me what his first impression of me was so i guess i'll never know. unless i get him drunk and make him tell me.

but anyways. its been a long time. i've turned him down at least three times. i've insulted him (seriously) countless times. he's got to be way over me by now. i need to stop obsessing over it. attractions fade over time and i just need to accept that.

so starting tomorrow, i say goodbye to my biggest time waster and distraction and begin focusing on important things.

how depressing