i'm unclear on what the cause is but the result is definitely noticeable. everyone's commented on it and its dragging me down. and i can't stop. every time i open my mouth, i only have something awful coming out of it.
insert joke about shoving something in it instead. pun intended.
anyways, this problem has left me stumped, confused, and as much of a downer than ever. maybe even more so. my life sucks because i can't figure out how to turn my frown upside down.
there i go again.
and while im criticizing myself, that phrase is so gay. i hated when someone said that to me when i was little.
k, i should stop the angry unhappiness here.
happy things.....and go.
im so happy to have aaron in my life, even if i can't have him for what i really want. but as a friend, he's pretty fucking amazing. he's supportive, constructive, and makes me laugh all the time. im also grateful for marisol in my life. my co-conspirator in life, she helps me get through all the nonsense that i face with school and trey and not being able to find a job. and she helps me with my self esteem when she comes to me for advice. and i suspect i help with hers when i do the same. and she always backs me up when aaron wrong accuses me of shenanigans.
and then there's trey whom i don't like very much right now because he didn't return any of my voicemails or texts yesterday. and i don't want to sound like a crazy person but its just that i semi got an offer yesterday and he couldn't take the time out of his stupid drink specials wednesday to call and congratulate me.
nope, no more negativeness.
trey is awesome. he calls me all the time now, mostly when he's drunk but that might count double. since he's leaving the party or the bar and devoting his time to telling me how much he loves me instead of focusing efforts on charming the southern belles that he is so partial to. he loves me and he lets me know :)
im blessed with a loving family that, despite making me cry, never ceases to make me smile as well.
theres more...but class calls
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