Fantasy Football is tearing apart my allegiances and my Sunday afternoons

since last year, i have made a conscious effort to educate myself about football. i have become a ravens fan (the choice was obvious as living in the dc metro area, my only alternative would have been the skins). i got a ravens jersey for christmas, have gone to most of the maryland games, even bought a maryland jersey as a sign of my willingness to look hardcore.

but its really one thing to be reading up on football rules and penalties and another to really know the game and the players. so this year, i joined my first ever fantasy football league.

i knew a little about the players on the ravens team when i joined. i knew big names like drew brees and eli manning and tom brady and tony homo, i'm sorry, romo. but that was really it. when i drafted i had trey on the phone, telling me exactly who to draft and when.

a week or two later after i'd lost my first fantasy game (i checked on monday after all the games were played), i had rhett come over and tell me what was wrong with my team.

a week after that i started winning. and started paying attention to my team and the games and the players.

this week im losing and its driving me nuts. what i thought would have been a harmless venture into educational game playing is tearing me up. i barely even cared that the ravens won, only that flacco was throwing to every single possible receiver on the roster EXCEPT for boldin. boldin gave me 2 points today. two weeks ago he almost hit 40.

the ravens game wasn't on so i turned on the skins game. i have some dc pride so i cheer for them every now and then. except today, i had the packers defense on my fantasy team so i was cheering both against skins offense and aaron rodgers as i was playing against him. it was pretty intense.

i was so anxious, it took me all afternoon to complete the one task i had wanted to finish: a one page list of skills that key account managers should have. it should have taken me 15 minutes.

what have you done to my life, fantasy football?

also, i need to get rid of a few people on my team. johnny knox officially sucks.